It's easy to stand still and watch life pass us by. I have done that for many years, but over the past few months I've seen more and more friends fight for their recovery, fight for themselves, their future self, their future family, their life. I've seen them believe in themselves, even when no one else does. I've seen my friends fight and win, and also some fight and lose (for lack of a better word, I don't see it as a loss - rather a stepping stone).
I think it can be hard to believe in going somewhere... in ending up where you're supposed to be. In just going, sometime not knowing where to but trusting it will all work out okay. I see recovery in this way. I don't know what is coming. I don't know where I am going or who I will be at the 'end' of the process. I say 'end' because I wonder if I'll ever be fully recovered and it will be over or if I'll always suffer in some way. Taking a risk can be scary. Choosing to go and not stand still is scary, but essential if we are going to live life and not waste it.
There are moments in
our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads; afraid, confused, without a
roadmap. The choices we make in those moments will define us for the rest of
our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around
and go back. But once in a while people push onto something better. Something
found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and
courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance.
Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when
you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're
tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist,
somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief. - Lucus Scott, One Tree hill.
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